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you turned my world upside down
maybe its love
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Friday, April 28, 2006 8:20 PM first wk of sch has come to an end 2dae... dunno leh.. kind of not realli like yr 2 life ba.. think tat yr 2 life is kind of alone, independent, lonely life.. got to go sch alone.. go home alone.. then if lunch time different frm de rest.. got to hav lunch alone.. so alone kind of life.. hate it!! dun like lo.. perhaps still not use to it ba... as in like in yr 1 sem 1.. got uncle zennie n uncle justin to pei mi when they r free... yr 2 sem 2 got papa.. anything can jus call them accompany... then can sa qiao.. then they will give in to mi.. haha..got problems can always turn to papa.. anything jus call papa.. so use to hav all my uncles n papa with mi.. sayang mi..talk to mi.. but now.. all going NS soon le... got problems oso dunno turn to hu..dun realli find anyone whom i think i can realli share my problem with.. i mean ur hav ur own life.. own relationship.. own problem.. if i still bother ur with my problem.. it jus dun seem veri right... in life u can hav alot of friends.. but not all of them can actually understands u.. definately u dun feel comfortable telling some ppl ur problem.. n there will be ppl hu will jus make u feel worse for they might not be a gd listener..yup so it's kind of hard to find someone whom u can share ur problem with... kind of sad.. hmmm actually veri sad lo... i know papa will surely ask mi not to think too much.. cus they will be out every wk.. then if got anything can jus tell them every wk.. i know..but ya jus sad n miss ur lo.. kind of like use to meeting ur everydae in sch..guess now it's time 4 mi to be more independent.. to realli relie on myself..cannot sa qiao to any more ppl le.. like wat papa say.. he wish to turn back de time.. i oso wan if i can.. got so many things i wish i could redo.. so many decision tat i wish i would reconsider then make de decision again... but ya i know i can't.. =( cus life goes on.. n ya realli got to treasure everything or it will jus become a past even b4 u realise it... 2dae realli hav a great talk with maryam.. still as sweet as b4.. still share de same thinking as mi.. simply love talking to her.. telling her all my stuffs.. listening to her comments.. simply love tis sweetie pie... realli can talk to her for veri long..feel better talking to her.. at least she understand my point of view n actually support wat i'm doing.. thanks darling if u r reading tis.. tis entry of mine is so long.. think abit emotional ba.. alot of things happen.. alot of mixed feelings within mi.. alot of things i wish could voice out n vent it out..i dunno.. realli dunno.. got alot of things left unsolved.. tired.. i dunno y i am having tis kind of alone life..jus dunno lor.. veri stupid la.. y am i always having tis kind of feeling.. tis feeling of drifting apart frm my grp of closest friend.. dun ask mi y cus i seriously dunno.. can anyone jus get mi out of tis stupid thing... at times it's jus so xin ku to feel alone.. - sad sad hao xiang ku =( - |
do you know? nana Age: 19 years old DOB: 08 October 1988 School: Temasek Polytechnic the best damn thing Berlinda Chang Yong Dawn Desmond Domint Dr.Foo Gdine Han Hui Shan Intsc Jocelyn Jolene Joyce Katherine Kelly Maryam Nic Soon Papa Bear QiSheng Regina Serene Sijie Si Jie Teddy Thian Shin Xingz YuanTing Zen Zhenli Kenng G |